Wednesday, October 14, 2009

First Day

So today is the day I am on my own with Noah! And still...pretty proud of myself, I've found time to only took me an hour to start this blog because my precious little one wanted to be held =)

Today is the first day of my new job. I like to call myself now Queen of the Jus (Shortened for Jurado's)! I was just a Princess before, but now I feel like a Queen. I've got my King and my Prince and my Castle to take care of. I feel so blessed for this opportunity to be able to stay at home with my son and look forward to continuing to be able to stay at home.

When Adam and I got married in March 08, I never would have thought that I would be a mommy so soon. Adam and I were on the "five year plan"...hehe...well God had other plans for us. It's so neat to see where life takes you. It's like you can plan for this and plan for that, but a lot of times life throws you curves and those curves can be some of the most amazing unexpected experiences of all time. I now cannot imagine not being Noah's mommy. I'm so glad to have him here with us, now, in this time of our lives. It's amazing how faithful God is too. Even though this wasn't apart of "the plan", God has totally looked out for us. For the first time in my life I've submitted myself completely to God and that's why I truly believe there is such peace in our life. God takes care of his people =)

God knew what he was doing when he gave us Noah. When I was only a couple of months pregnant one of our favorite Pastors (Dano) prophesied over Noah in my belly. He said that Noah was going to bring FREEDOM. Noah was going to break the chains that bound people. That people would just hold Noah even as a baby, and chains would begin to be broken off of them. How amazing is that? Let me tell you...NOAH has brought FREEDOM. He has brought major freedom in my life. He has brought a peace, he has a brought a striving to be a better person, he has brought a greater knowledge of love and this is just the beginning. This baby is already ministering to my heart. I can't wait to see what his destiny and future holds. No matter what it is, I promise to strive to be the mommy that God has asked me to be and the mommy that Noah needs me to be. It may not always be, "by the book" but it will be by Gods grace and love. I also strive to be the wife that God has called me to be and the wife that my husband needs me to be. Because I do already realize that one of the best ways to show Noah love and respect, is to love and respect your spouse. I know that things in life are not always going to be easy, there's going to be some times that we cannot control and sometimes when we act ungodly. However, this I know...keeping God first will allow all to conquer anything.

Thanks Jesus for my precious gift of Noah. Thank you for taking good care of him up in heaven before you allowed us to meet him. <3

Monday, October 12, 2009

I Am Me

I Am Me.

Thanks to a friend I've gotten a little bit of encouragement here to officially start a blog. I've been journaling for some time, but let's face it...this is the techno stage! I'm pretty sure I won't throw out my journal, it's been too faithful! However, I type a lot faster than I write!

So here's to my first blog! Not sure if anyone will actually read it, but to be honest with doesn't even matter. Sometimes it's just nice to talk (or type) from the heart.

Mom. That's what I am now. It's such an amazing experience. I actually don't think "amazing" or any other word for that matter could truly express right fully so the feelings and emotions I feel about being, "Noah's Mommy". As a little girl you always play house or with your baby dolls or barbies. You play out your "dream wedding" and already have your kids names picked out. I remember for the longest time I was going to name my little girl, "Maggie" and my little boy "Tristan". I have no clue where Maggie came from and I'm not even sure why I liked it (sorry to all the Maggie's out there lol) and Tristan came from Brad Pitt's character in the movie, "Legends of the Fall". As a little girl you always dream and imagine what your life is going to be like. You think about who you are going to marry, how many kids your going to have, what you want to be when you grow up, what your house is going to look like, etc. I've gone through so many career choices in my head from being a Marine Biologist to a Movie Star to a Lawyer and then to an FBI Agent, Teacher, Singer....
The one thing that has stayed constant is the dream of being a mommy. No matter what I have always wanted to be a wife and a mommy. I know this is the same dream that most little girls have.
Now I am living my dream. I am a wife to an amazing husband and I am a mommy to an amazing little boy. I am living that dream and fulfilling part of what I believe to be my destiny.
Now...with all of this said, I am still me. I am my husband's wife and Noah's mommy but I am also Paris. This is something that I want to make sure that I hold onto tight because even though much of my identity is found now in being a wife and a mom, I still owe myself the right to be me.
What I mean by this is that, I owe myself the right to not lose sight of the spunky, sassy, sarcastic, girly, high heel wearing, lover of lip gloss girl. My husband and my Noah are the two most important people and they will always be put first. But I also want to make sure that in this journey, I don't lose sight of me.
So if your my friend...remind me...I am Me and don't let me lose sight of that =)

ps: I'm a with it ;)