I almost forgot I had a blog. That is until I finished the book, "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert. Yes, it has inspired me. Gosh, I hate to sound so cliche. It truly is a fantastic, life-changing, thought provoking book. In a different life I'd like to think that I would have had the balls to jump up and leave everything behind to travel the world for 1 year. I know that her journey wasn't always a pleasurable one. She went through a lot of struggles, self loathing, battles to get to the light at the end of her tunnel. I think that's the key...."her tunnel". Everyones life takes a different path. Every person has a different destiny. Liz and I are very different. However, I can relate to some of Elizabeth's feelings in many ways. I too wonder what this life and world has to offer. And I feel (and know) as if I haven't reached my full destination/destiny yet.
I don't want this blog to sound as if I'm not happy with where I'm at. I'm actually quite the opposite of that. I'm very happy & blessed. I love my husband and love being his wife. I've got a husband who is my partner, lover and best friend. And I love my son and love being his mommy. Those are two things I wouldn't trade for the universe. I love being a stay at home mom and taking care of our home and son. I am so appreciative of my life and so grateful to have a hard working, dedicated husband who enables me to be able to do these things. But, I also look forward to the unknown things that life has to offer. I look forward to adventures. I believe I am fulfilling PARTS of my destiny now but I believe there are many other parts of my destiny that are still to come. And I'm not sure what pieces of the puzzle I "need" or what God has in store for me. But, what I do know is whatever it is, I will have my family by my side. Adam and I started dating at a young age and got married at a young age, we both knew that we still had a lot of growing up to do (and still have a lot of growing up to do), but something we both decided and chose to do was to "grow up" together. I think that's the key sometimes with things in a marriage and in life...when you are in a committed relationship you have to be commited to eachother and the decisions that are made TOGETHER. You have to be one, stay one and work as a team. I never want to do anything in life without having Adam by my side doing it with me. I need his support when I decide to follow my dreams and I vow to support him as he chases his.
I've read the book & now seen the movie. The one quote that has stuck with me is this, "The only permanent thing in life is family". If that's not the truth I don't know what is.
ps: "I am a woman searching for a word" ;) I'll let you know when I figure that one out....it could take a while....like years.....