Thursday, November 25, 2010

I am a woman searching for a word..

I almost forgot I had a blog. That is until I finished the book, "Eat, Pray, Love" by Elizabeth Gilbert. Yes, it has inspired me. Gosh, I hate to sound so cliche. It truly is a fantastic, life-changing, thought provoking book. In a different life I'd like to think that I would have had the balls to jump up and leave everything behind to travel the world for 1 year. I know that her journey wasn't always a pleasurable one. She went through a lot of struggles, self loathing, battles to get to the light at the end of her tunnel. I think that's the key...."her tunnel". Everyones life takes a different path. Every person has a different destiny. Liz and I are very different. However, I can relate to some of Elizabeth's feelings in many ways. I too wonder what this life and world has to offer. And I feel (and know) as if I haven't reached my full destination/destiny yet.

I don't want this blog to sound as if I'm not happy with where I'm at. I'm actually quite the opposite of that. I'm very happy & blessed. I love my husband and love being his wife. I've got a husband who is my partner, lover and best friend. And I love my son and love being his mommy. Those are two things I wouldn't trade for the universe. I love being a stay at home mom and taking care of our home and son. I am so appreciative of my life and so grateful to have a hard working, dedicated husband who enables me to be able to do these things. But, I also look forward to the unknown things that life has to offer. I look forward to adventures. I believe I am fulfilling PARTS of my destiny now but I believe there are many other parts of my destiny that are still to come. And I'm not sure what pieces of the puzzle I "need" or what God has in store for me. But, what I do know is whatever it is, I will have my family by my side. Adam and I started dating at a young age and got married at a young age, we both knew that we still had a lot of growing up to do (and still have a lot of growing up to do), but something we both decided and chose to do was to "grow up" together. I think that's the key sometimes with things in a marriage and in life...when you are in a committed relationship you have to be commited to eachother and the decisions that are made TOGETHER. You have to be one, stay one and work as a team. I never want to do anything in life without having Adam by my side doing it with me. I need his support when I decide to follow my dreams and I vow to support him as he chases his.

I've read the book & now seen the movie. The one quote that has stuck with me is this, "The only permanent thing in life is family". If that's not the truth I don't know what is.

ps: "I am a woman searching for a word" ;) I'll let you know when I figure that one out....it could take a while....like years.....

3 comments:

  1. This is beautiful MP! I am looking forward to knowing you better through your blog since our paths do not really cross much in "real life".

    This post reveals some wisdom beyond your age as you realize that this is just a season of your life. There will be days as a mom that you feel like it will never change, but it does and you have many more amazing and crazy adventures ahead! The wisdom is being able to totally enjoy the MOMENTS, and you are doing that beautifully!

    Fun times!

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  2. Thanks for checking out my blog Mrs. Susie. And thanks for the kind words =)

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